I’m faced with a crossroads and I’m wondering which path to take. I see the two paths ahead and contemplate which one is right for me. Which path is meant to be? It all comes down to choice. It is not easy to find humility in change, or in the decision making process, because I pour my heart and soul into all that I do. Alas, it is time to cut my losses and stand on my own ground. Because of the time I’ve already invested, I am faced with the tall shadow of fear, fear of losing what I have helped create, and anxious about what is yet to come. Resentment rears its ugly head several times during this discovery and frustration was her sidekick. The energy died. I used to love you Gwen Stefanie says. Ironically, as I stand before this challenge, I am being nominated for an award. In the foggy distance, there is power.
Going out on a limb comes naturally to me. I’m now going out on a limb with my own new initiative, much like I did when I created the Power show. Why not craft my own ideal vision, rather than follow the status quo? I can create my own field of trees, organically grown. I did once create something from a mere seed. I planted something of value to give back and I grew something worth having. I listened as my power tree developed; I shifted my branches, and clipped them when necessary. I cultivated an ideal tree to climb. My power tree has deep roots now, and has created the ground for many. Going out on a limb is what I did in 2013, and Mr. Ed Perry went out on a limb for me and my, not yet named, idea. In a world unbeknownst to me, I became innovative in a world I didn’t know. In a YouTube video, at the start of her talk show career, Ellen DeGeneres speaks about how grateful she was. When most celebrities weren’t ready to risk being a guest, Prince supported her in season one. In hindsight, I don’t see where the risk was, strategy is all I see. There is power in creating.
Where most stay at the core, I continue to go out on a limb, and germinate potential growth. My tree can give life, provide value with identity, and protect others with strength. Some might mistaken my kindness for weakness, because the stakes are high, but I can find gratitude in this new atmosphere shift. Some will carve deep into my trunk of a soul, but with creation, comes risk. Like Ed Sheeran, my tree is evergreen. The first year they sleep, the second year they creep, the third year they leap. There is power in time.
With every stepping stone, there are cornerstones & milestones. New paths appear where there once were none. Today I see stability in the iron cages that hold my beloved peonies. Sometimes it takes time to emerge from what was, to discover new & pure elation. Opportunity arrives when you least expect it. The branches that need to break will break. The limbs that are stable with each season become more stable. There is power in new life.
Money doesn’t grow on trees, and my tree stands alone now, but not for long. It is ready to support new branches and be supported by the stable rocks, lush garden and light that accompany me. They say the grass is always greener on the other side, but it takes more courage to stand on your own piece of land.